It is no secret that I hate my body. I can't remember a time I looked in the mirror and thought "WOW"!! I have always wanted to look like someone else and have huge envy over other women's fit bodies. Don't get me wrong, I am not a huge person, but still, I don't like my bod!! But, I am now 30 (gasp!), and am coming to the realization that I need to love (or like) me, because now I have a sweet little girl that overhears me mumbling about this roll or that sagging hiney, and I would not want her to ever struggle with her own self-image as I have. So, I am really trying to get fit and eat better, so that I can feel comfortable in my own skin, and maybe once in my life look in the mirror and be ok with what I see. Here is my plan:
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. Try and make "me" time. This is definetly hard with 5 kiddos that I am with 24 hours a day. Since I homeschool, I can't send them off to school and have some quiet time during the day. And since we are 40 minutes to the closest gym, that is too off the table. So, I am going to start setting my alarm for 1 hour before the kiddos wake up, which will be 5:30, and do a workout dvd. I bought the Jillian Micheals "30 Day Shred" and the "Biggest Loser Boot Camp", so I think I will try and do either one or both each morning.
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Eating better. I am so guilty of snacking off of each of the kids' plates. When they don't eat all their food, I snatch it up, cause ya know, there are starving kids in this world, and I would not want to see that food go to waste!! HA!! Today, I went and bought all kinds of healthy food, so I am going to take some time tomorrow and prepare meals for myself during the week. I think it will be alot harder to make excuses to not eat healthy when I open the fridge and something good is ready for me. On a sidenote, tonight, after eating broccoli, roasted chkn breat, low fat string cheese, and yogurt today, I was craving something yummy. So, Marc's "stash" of goodies is in the cupboard above the fridge, so I decided to jump up and try to grab the box, and as I was getting it, I came down on my ankle and heard a crack. Although I was fine, I knew that was a sign that I need to NOT be eating that junk!!!
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Have a goal. I would love to find a 5k to sign up for to work towards. I am not sure of the training for one, so that is something I need to research. Since I don't have a gym to go to, or a treadmill, running outside is really my only option. And since we are in Northern CA and being pounded with storms for the next month, I am thinking that maybe finding a race for the beginning of summer is more realistic than something sooner. Another goal of mine is to comfortably wear a bathing suit next summer when we go to Texas. We will be spending alot of time at the lake, so I don't want to be wearing a towel or a big t-shirt the whole time. I want to be able to run on the beach with the kids, and not think that everyone is laughing at the fat chick chasing her kids!!!
So, here goes nothing...
(please be prepared to read about alot of bad days in my goal of losing 20 lbs. HA!!!)